Tuesday, February 8

New Home Insecurity

There's still an echo in my room
unassigned bed placement
too many walls to choose from? Perhaps...

I don't think i can paint it again
what happens when you go from sunburst yellow to ashes grey?
Its funny, and kinda odd that I'm projecting all this instability on the color of my walls, like somehow the right color is going to make everything feel "safe, stable, comfortable, familiar"
but really
I mean after 18 months living in a zen center, you'd think she's got it down
but the only thing she seems to have down is grasping at non reality

But where should I put my fucking bed?!
Where should I put the lamp?
What color curtains? Walls? Bedding?

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh